so when i was a little down i realized that hey...some girl writes on your wall A LOT.
these days we email each other every few days...
i asked if u were still goign out with HER...but u told me that u weren't and that you were
actually goign out with this girl in vancouver. i knew it. LOOOL. i had my doubts...
but you confirmed it for me. i am just not sure how that really transpired...like
how long were u and HER broken up for till you got together with vancouver girl?
i am curious aobut that..........so this means that if i had said something ...or hinted
to you earlier.....as in last year...we could have been together T________T
geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez louise....

just hope that ure happy wit this girl. hoepfuleie ur long d relationship will work out~
a song for you both. cos i noe that's what ure both feeling: brandy -- long distance.

neway i noe my sis winnie is a my reader so just wnana say HI TO MY LOVE! kekeke. i can't believe we spent so much on earrings. i still can't fathom ho much it cost..even tho if u think about it we sepnd so much on other accessories and clothes..LOOOOOOOOOOOOL. T___T

you finally admitted to "kinda" being with someone. lol kinda weird way to say so. sorta disappointed with you but we shall see if i am right.

on the other hand, bee geh emails puts giant smiles on my face :DDDDDD

doodoodoo pmall saturday with sis<3

seem to be okay these days.
one of my closest friends winnie helped me get over it a bit.
haha actually the few ppl i told were all quite supportive.
tho some of u have extreme suggestions..glad i didn't listen to them LOL
geez.
hahahaha. but yes the "san sum" trip to buffalo/niagra helped TONS.
also studying..and stressing bout midterm has definitely made me stop worrying.

there are more important things to do.. other ppl i can love.
right now is just not the time to think about you in that way.

too bad for you. lol.
sometimes ppl say that to make them feel better.
but SERIOUSLY. it IS too bad for you that u are goign out with her and not me >:)

too bad so sad. lol

i sent the e-mail......last night. O_____O
why? cos he msged me....if it was a HIHI...it wud have been fine.
but NOPE. "jo mei ar =/"...."are you okay?"..."hope it's not very serious =("..
he kept digging it out of me.......
"your job?", "your family?", "your health?"......
and so ..i knew that it was time...
so i sent it..
but i dindt tell him it was "Sent"
truthfully, i do not if he got it?
or did he go to bed...........
i kind of scared him when i said it would make him sad..
and that it was really serious..and important to me.
LOOOOOL. o gawd........i should have just told him
then and there....how i felt.
even at the brink of telling him..he made me laugh one last time.
he's so dumb..cos he thinks it's...some random email..
liek a news story or some photos... HAHAHAH. T_______T baka.
but i was so scared. i could have just not sent it out.
i could have just been normal.....could have told him im fine =)
but...chee jo..have to tell him..either i dont see him ever again....
so that the feelings can fade.......or tell him...and feel relieved.

*shrugs*...did i make the right choice?
i know that maybe nothing will come out of this..
but at least. i told him how i felt...and hopefulie (if he read) the email he will know.
hoepfuliee he read it..and doesn't msg me and be normal and oblivious to the email.
hope he doesn't say.. "i dint read it :)" HHAHAHAA.
it would be.............................so gay.

lol. neway im so antsy rite now..can't sit stil.cna't focus on my readings....ahhhh.
but i gota focus RITE NOW! RIGHT NOWWWWWWWW. >:(

im ready. i wrote out what i want to say.. and condensed it because......
i think he will get bored...or feel overwhelmed.
2 days ago i was nervous..scared...
today.. i feel...anxious and impatient.
it's like doing a test..i just want to get it over with.
=T

friday......... =(
prepared to lose you.